Thursday, 07 August 2008
Being
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By James J Henry Jr
Back in the 1930s, being a small boy, I alone decided to climb atop of an outside toilet that had recently been built in our backyard.
I remember it was constructed by the WPA or some similar government organization for the benefit of the working-class people who populated our South Jersey neighborhood. I thought it to be a very nice structure that could seat two simultaneously. I was very pleased with it.
It was freshly painted and smelled of new lumber. The roof was angled about fifteen degrees. Perfect for lying one one's back and looking up at the sky which is what I did once up there.
It was a cold, dark winter evening with no wind and crystal-clear visibility. I had had some education regarding the universe and stars from field tips to the Fels planetarium in Philadelphia, but this was a very different reality. It was a real reality.
I lay on my back comfortably angled up at the fifteen degrees and stared at the sky for very long time scanning for I don't know what. Occasionally, I could see tiny shooting stars, as we called them. However, I could not see then and still cannot see the astrological figures, but the Milky Way, the North Star, and the Big Dipper were clearly visible.
This activity caused me to enter a pleasant state of mind that I did not want to change, nor did I want to physically move. Simultaneously, I had strong feelings of inclusion, existing and being. I felt as though I totally belonged here, and that I was an important part of what I was observing.
Some almost seventy years later, this experience has never left my memory. This is an enduring part of my religion of which I am the only member.
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I know exactly how you felt. It happened to me once when I was buried in the sand at Virginia Beach (up to my neck). I felt at one with the earth and I have never been more relaxed than I was during the time in the sand. I almost cried when I got dug out of the sand. I realize that sounds weird, but it's the truth.
Posted by: kenju | Thursday, 07 August 2008 at 05:06 AM
We all seem to possess a oneness with nature. I believe it is inbred. We can only seem to capture it when we are alone. I have felt it in the Rockies sitting by a flowing stream and looking at the surrounding beauty. It's a very peaceful feeling.
James,thank you for reminding me that we are a part of this vast universe and that we can commune with nature if we are still.
Posted by: Darlene | Thursday, 07 August 2008 at 05:51 AM
Yes, I know how you felt.
I don't know why I was alone in the house. I was only about 10. My parents were probably at church and it was a beautiful cold evening in December.
Then it began to snow. A hush came over our street when it snowed. The sidewalks got covered as the snow "Landed" as we kids used to say.
You could easily see how big the flakes were by looking at the streetlight in front of our house.The snow would get caught in a shaft of light and would become a
kaleidescope with different shapes and colors of snow crystals.
We had learned at school that each snow flake was completely different from any other and I was mezmerized
by that idea.
I watched that snow and ran out once and turned my face up to it and let it fall on my lips.
I was completely alone but,as you said, James, I felt that I belonged there. I loved being one with nature, and I felt that nature loved me back.
Posted by: Nancy | Thursday, 07 August 2008 at 06:11 AM
Looks like you have other members of your religion. I had a special tree where I could hide and be alone. Memories recalled with such fondness. Now I watch my youngest grandchild head for the cherry tree on each visit and know why she can sit out there most of the day and be happy. Thank you for this stirring of good thoughts. Plus, I'm glad it didn't end with you crashing through the roof into the toilet!
Posted by: Granny Annie | Thursday, 07 August 2008 at 06:41 AM
What a lovely memory whatever the location. I recall experiences such as that, especially when I was alone with nature, leaned against a tree, motionless and still. The feeling is exquisite. The creatures would begin to accept me as belonging to the world, would emerge from their secret places and cautiously resume their ordinary activities.
Posted by: joared | Thursday, 07 August 2008 at 10:47 AM
Only once while sitting in a church and the light came in and seem to focus on me. I felt the heat and light as though I was in a circle of light. It was peaceful and wonderful.
I've gone back to the same church and spot often and never had it happen again.
thanks for sharing...beautifully written.
Dorothy from grammology
grammology.com
Posted by: Dorothy Stahlnecker | Thursday, 07 August 2008 at 06:07 PM
Thanks, James, for sharing this wonderful experience. Our busy lives often cut us off from that oneness that can be found in the right moment of stillness and wonder. I also loved reading about the experiences of those who commented. I once was blessed by that kind of connection after sitting at the bedside of my mother-in-law who was ill. Walking home, just letting my mind drift, it seemed as if the whole universe opened it's arms around me. Even the sound of traffic was like music.
Posted by: Sharry | Saturday, 06 September 2008 at 08:11 AM